Day 1

15 (Pickled onions) 

30 (Seeds)

~700 (Itsu dinner)

300 (Teriyaki rice crackers)

120 (Starbucks) 

1 (Diet Coke) 

240 (Chicken satay with Tabasco) 

40 (Cotton candy grapes)

200 (Chocolate)

??? (Wine)   

Total: ~1646 

See; this is a prime example of why I haven't been losing. I felt like the total was going to be so much lower. I didn't even count the wine, but it was a lot. 

I spent all afternoon wandering around Chelsea with Liza May. We talked fraud and men and weight and getting skinny. Then Bruiser texted and of course, he's jetting off for a good month, so we had to see each other. I think I've slipped a disc in my back. I'm off work for the week, and the weather is gorgeous, so it's the perfect time to start this new bout of restriction. We had sex for hours and did lines in his pent house on the King's Road. We get each other like no one else. He makes everything else melt away, though he shouldn't. 

I feel determined in a new way. I've been reading old archives and trying to gear myself up. I'm back in my room now with the fan on and my hair washed, and I feel my overweightness, I feel its burden on my frame. LM has lost around 30 pounds doing gym twice a day and OMAD. I lack her discipline. I need to find my groove again. I need to get rid of this excess, it's been far too long since I've felt myself.